Choices

Everyone has choices in life. It’s our right as human beings to make choices, either good or bad. I choose to make many good choices everyday, like not dropping the F bomb in front of my boss or by watching my smart ass comments so they don’t all come out. For some reason I have a really hard time making good choices when it comes to food. Yes I admit it, I have a problem, I’m not able to say NO. I want to be able to say no but my brain wont let me. I would say half the time my choices are good, but tonight was not one of those times. An awesome friend was celebrating her day of birth and I wanted to join the celebration. Was it a good idea for me to order 6 boneless wings, onion rings and a bud light lime, not at all but I made a bad choice and did it anyways (thankfully didn’t finish any of it). The thrush in my mouth absolutely hates me right now but my body feels fine, I guess we will see how tomorrow morning goes. The question is how do I manage to say “no” to these temptations? I hate having bad food choice days, my goal is for them to be fewer and far between but it is sooo hard!!

It is frustrating for me because I like to think that I am good at many things, well not sports but that is a given. I get a little upset with myself when I’m not able to make a good food choice because when you think about it, it should seem easy to make a good choice. It must be the devil overtaking the angel, damn red devil! Remind me to shoot that thing next time it appears.

Another topic of “choices” is that to do something about what is happening to your body. I feel as though I am making a good choice by not settling for what some doctors have told me and have gone further to see if a different way of healing could help me overcome the pain and disease process along with nasty drug side effects. A big reason why I want to blog is because I want people to realize that they don’t have to make the choice to settle with a mediocre lifestyle. People with arthritis can actually feel good, you just need to find what works for you, this is my belief anyways and the theory I’m personally testing. It frustrates me when people choose to give up on working, or fun things they enjoy in life because arthritis has taken over. I see these people making bad lifestyle choices and suffer through horrible pain and an uncontrolled disease and I just want to help them and give them advice and say “life doesn’t have to be like this, other things are out there to help you!” I feel like I have hit rock bottom with my arthritis and I have chosen to do something about it instead of go on disability and take pain med after pain med. I want to be able to play with my son, I want more children, I want to walk when I’m 50, and I want to live a “normal” life. So my choice is to try my best to make good decisions such as seeing someone that wants me to live an overall healthy life (not just cover up the arthritis symptoms with meds), take the supplements recommended to me, work on a healthier lifestyle, learning, and praying. I’m sure I will offend some people by being so blunt, honesty hurts. I have health care professionals that are blunt with me, I didn’t like it, but it makes me realize that these are the ones that care the most. Do yourself a favor, if you’re reading this and you suffer from some sort of medical problem and the current treatment plan you are on is not working, try something else. You are your own best advocate, ask your provider questions, second guess them, research your disease, do whatever it takes to feel good!!!