Is it time to move on?

We have finally come to the point where we are going to start the adoption process. In a couple weeks we will travel up to Minneapolis to sit in on an adoption information meeting. That is the first step in the process of adopting. Once we finish this meeting we can then choose to apply to adopt. 

This is an exciting and scary moment for me. It is really overwhelming when looking at all the information about adoption, the different options for adoption, how expensive it is, the time it will take, etc. I find myself googling and researching for hours at a time. It has taken me a long time to finally come to this decision. I'm not 100% there yet though.

Part of me doesn't want to give up on fertility treatments. I know that when we did treatments last time we did not try very hard. This is a hard decision to make, do we move on or do we go back to try for our own child? This has been a constant question in my mind for the past couple years. For my piece of mind I have to see the fertility specialist one more time before I know that I'm truly ready to move on. With my treatments finally controlling my arthritis more than they have in the past seven years maybe it's a good time to try again? I have found that fertility treatments are cheaper than adoption, but they are not guaranteed. 

In the meant time we are going to forge ahead and start both processes. The adoption process can take a very long time. Most of the expenses come with the home study for adoption and I expect to have fertility answers by the time we get to our home study. All I can do is pray that God gives us the opportunity to parent another child, no matter if it's our biological child or adopted child. 

I'm giving Jim the task of remodeling the upstairs to turn it into a bedroom for Alex. He is willing to move upstairs if he can be a big brother. I think he wants a sibling just as bad as I want to give him one!